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My father is 70 today. I always thought that was really old, but when I look at him he doesn’t seem it, or look it. We’re going out for a family dinner to celebrate tonight, 16 of us. I’ve been wondering why I feel so anxious about it, although it’s not news that I find group occasions difficult. I’m guessing that stems from school, which I loathed, but who knows. Funny thing is, I love meeting new people etc, but group occasions, especially meals, weddings and christenings make me so stressed out I often get ill before them. I hate that I don’t seem to be able to be normal about this, but there it is.
Anyway, Daddy is in an excellent mood today which is fantastic, and I really hope tonight is memorable and happy for him. Perhaps this unexplained feeling is because of the milestone element of today. 70 is not young, however young he looks or feels, and inevitably there is a sense of ‘making the most of the time we have’. I won’t go there now, it’s not helping.
Anyway, I really want to enjoy tonight and part of that will involve me making an effort, so I’d better go and start preparing. This could take some time. I’m not exactly the queen of pampering, and definitely not what you’d call high maintenance.
